Travel In China

I met a guy a year and a half ago, when I say a guy I mean my dream guy, that guy that walks out of the steam and towards you in dreams, smiling and perfect… We meet 2 months before I went away to leave and teach in China for a year… Anyways we met and started dating and feel very deeply in love… I never really really thought about not going because I was close to going and I wanted to so bad… so we decided to stay together and date long distance… When I got there I just wanted to turn around and run back to him, I missed him sooooo much that if I thought about him I would burst into tears…. He was amazing to me, he was there for me, via skype, everyday… It went well for a while, other than the fact that being away from him and only getting him over skype was torture… Still I was sticking to my convictions and while struggling in Asia alone and missing him I was enjoying immersing myself in their lifestyle and exploring… I was going to stick it out…Then I started to get sad every time we talked, he was so far away, a whole day behind aswell! I felt guilty bc I felt like he thought I didn’t want to talk to him as much as he wanted to talk to me… I guess it made me sad talking to him and not being able to physically be with him.. Anyways so it got hard…I felt pressured and not happy because I wasn’t with him, he never spoke of coming he couldn’t at that time… After struggling with what to do, and dealing with being sad I ended things… We stopped talking for a few months, we talked once and a while in those in between times… But I really missed him, I thought about him everyday, he really missed me too… We decided to get back together about 4 months before I was supposed to come home…we also started planning a backpacking trip around another foreign beautiful country together for 2 months after I got home… Then one day over skype out of the blue he said, yeah so I don’t think that I can go any more.. we got in a big fight and kinda broke up, sorta I dunno I just didn’t talk to him for a few days, then I apologized and said that I wanted to call it just a fight not a break up,… things were kinda icy btwn us for a bit thou,..anyways then on facebook a few days later I saw pictures of him with another girl… He started seeing this other girl… I was sooo upset…. I cut him off and didn’t talk to him for the remainder of my time over seas… When I came home he was still with her…but calling me all the time…. I still loved him so I was still talking to him, he went to Cuba on a trip with this girl… I found out about this trip bc he texted me from Cuba telling me where he was and that he wished he were with me… I was very upset about the Cuba trip with her but his friends convinced me he missed me so much and that he must really love me and miss me if he was texting me from Cuba… I guess maybe I should have forgiven him then if I loved him as much as I do and I was going to but when he got home and we were going to go out for coffee and talk about everything he sent me a text that was meant for her… saying pretty much that he was meeting me but for her not to be mad… I yelled at him and told him to ever talk to me again… At this time I should say that I was talking to this guy that I met in Korea who was also from Canada.. this guy was my best friend there, he made me laugh and he was very sweet to me and he was now home and back in a town very close to mine… I loved him bc we were so close but I didn’t have those drunk in love feelings with him back to the dream guy…So then they broke up and I don’t remember how but we started talking again…. He said he wanted to just be friends for while bc we had gone through so much we needed time to let things cool down…. I kept up my friend ship with Korea/Canada guy then dream guy decides that he wants me back after the summer and he apologizes and says hes sorry for everything, he knows he messed up, very sincere the whole thing..But then by that time I just thought about my friend who had been there for me this whole time… so I said to dream guy… look there is someone else in my life now, I have to see where this will go….So then me Canada/Korea guy hung out romantically at my suggestion, it didn’t work out I also don’t think he really likes me like that bc he doesn’t treat me any different now, still just like a friend, I think he realizes were just friends aswell and I don’t like him like that I realized too, just friends…so I went back to dream guy and I said I know now I want to be with you, you give me butterflies you make me happy when we are together… I though finally finally we would be back together…. Now he says he found someone else that wants marriage and to settle down…. I have to move away to go to school, and he doesn’t want to go, and that he gave up on us… Christ I want to give up on him, this is all so much and if anyone actually read through this whole thing a thousand thank you’s…. !!! What do you think about this whole situation…